I haven’t written in a while. Honestly, I have been trying to keep my head above water and trying to process all that is happening in my life. I wish I could report that I have figured it all out, but that would be a lie. I think it will be quite some time before … Continue reading Treading Water

It’s Feburary 2nd again. Bill’s Alive Day. Twenty-four years from the day a phone call shattered my peaceful day, and turned my life upside down. A few seconds and everything was changed… including my definition of love. I cannot explain it. I cannot fathom how I made that journey from the ER, to the ICU, … Continue reading Another Feb. 2nd

Went by to see Louise today. Ray said she had a bad night…meaning that she was up and about from about 1:00 am to 6:00 am…meaning so was he. When I talked with her she seemed more confused than the last time I saw her, and her hands were tremoring. I am hoping it is … Continue reading Today’s Louise Visit

We went to see Louise for her birthday. She was happy to see us and happier to learn that is was her birthday. We had to improvise with the candle so we used a taper candle off the dining room table. She wasn’t sure what we were doing, and honestly, it was a bit unusual. … Continue reading Happy Birthday Louise

I went by to see Louise tonight. She and Ray were on their way to eat dinner so we talked a few minutes in the driveway. She is glad to be home. She said she remembered the dogs, but she seems like she is in a different world. I told her that her memory is … Continue reading Home

Today was a big day for Louise. First, to see her regular neurologist this morning, then a team meeting at the nursing home/rehab center this afternoon. Once again, I could be a neurologist. “We don’t really know…and time will tell.” I didn’t really expect much different. He said this could be her new baseline, but … Continue reading Big Day

I haven’t had the time to see Louise the past couple of days because of commitments made months ago. When I saw her this morning she was sleeping, still in her clothes from yesterday. I didn’t ask why that was, because I knew she wouldn’t know why. She brightened when she opened her eyes and … Continue reading Constructing Meaning

Went to see Louise today. She was happy to have company. Her roommate is a sweet lady with congestive heart failure. She seems in good condition, she’s in a wheelchair but very coherent, and she is very kind to Louise. She worries about Louise and tries to keep a watch on her. She let me … Continue reading Wierd

I didn’t get a chance to go see Louise today, but I talked to her on the phone. I asked her if she had been to physical therapy today and she said, “I don’t know. I think I have been sleeping all day.” I talked to Ray and he said she had been to therapy. … Continue reading Settling In

Louise was moved today. She is in a nursing home with a rehab unit in hopes that she will recover to where she was before the events of last weekend. At this point, she is on the move. Making us a bit nervous about the possibility she could fall. However, after laying in a bed … Continue reading The Move