I lost my voice. No talking for several days, shouting to create a whisper. Just as well. I haven’t had much to say lately. No words, at least. Lots of feelings. None that I can really describe. Turns out, a week or so of silence is just what I needed. There is no pressure to … Continue reading Hole in My Soul
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Update on Mom
Back in July, when Mom broke her leg, we didn’t think she would still be here at Christmas. Her pain when moved was evident. Her leg was in an immobilizer, which was big and bulky. We called hospice in to help with pain management. She was slipping away faster than before the fall, and we … Continue reading Update on Mom
Wait for the Rescue
Waiting is never easy. Especially when you are waiting for a rescue. Yet, a great deal of the inner life requires waiting on God. His timing. His plan. His action. When I am working out my own rescue, it usually involves striving. Rushing. Trying to ‘fix’ whatever it is. God will sit and wait for … Continue reading Wait for the Rescue
The Days of Advent
The days of advent are upon us. A liturgical season to which I never paid much attention until recently. A season of waiting. A season of anticipation. A season of light in the darkness. There is certainly enough darkness these days to have me looking for some light. It seems overwhelming sometimes, the heaviness of … Continue reading The Days of Advent
The Panic Button
A season of waiting. Much longer than any of us anticipated. Yet, I have been here before. Not in this same way of course, but waiting is not new to me. I bet it’s not to you either. It is an uncomfortable space. The lack of control in seasons of waiting is difficult to manage, … Continue reading The Panic Button
Don’t Waste the Wait
When our governor decided open the state my first reaction was, “Not yet! I haven’t cleaned the garage. The puzzle isn’t complete. I need to finish my book!” All the things I haven’t accomplished rose to my mind. I am one of those people who wakes up with a to-do list. I can’t help it. … Continue reading Don’t Waste the Wait
Faith vs. Surrender
Since I wrote the middle-of-the-night-scare-your-family-and-friends blog titled I Wish, I have been thinking about it quite a bit. Somehow it was extremely freeing to write from the depths of my soul like that. I think to open up and let the hard stuff be seen was a big step for me. I typically hold it … Continue reading Faith vs. Surrender
Dear Butterflies-in-Waiting
This letter is a response to my previous New Year's blog...for all those who are currently waiting. Dear Butterflies-in-Waiting, The dark place you are in may seem to have lasted forever. You may feel like you will never be released from it. No matter which direction you attempt to move you feel blocked. Over and … Continue reading Dear Butterflies-in-Waiting
Michelle's Mosaic 