When I had my first baby, my heart grew three sizes. I had no idea before that moment that the heart was expandable. I had never felt this kind of love before. It was big and all consuming. It resulted in joy overflowing and even on hard days it didn’t diminish. So much so, that … Continue reading Happy 1st Birthday!
Family
BIG Weekend
This weekend is a BIG one regarding our book. We were interviewed yesterday by Teepa Snow who is a dementia care specialist. Teepa’s care strategies and techniques look at what is known about brain function and changes that happen with various conditions and integrate that information with therapeutic approaches. Her company is called Positive Approach … Continue reading BIG Weekend
Update
It’s no secret Mom and Dad had quite a remarkable love story. It was in no way perfect, but their dedication, commitment and love for each other was unmatched. Since Mom passed, the number one question I get asked is, “How is your Dad?” That is understandable, since their story was well known and since … Continue reading Update
Prayer Chair
I inherited Mom’s prayer chair. It is a fluffy upholstered seat that hugs you when you sit in it. It has a matching ottoman for my feet. The fabric has a white background with a floral pattern of blues and greens. A soothing place to sit. Next to it, is a table with a family … Continue reading Prayer Chair
The Other Shoe
I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. It always does. So far, my grieving has been primarily relief, and even joy, that Mom is whole again. Her suffering is over and that makes me glad, not sad. Yet, I know grief comes in stages, and I have been expecting the sadness to show … Continue reading The Other Shoe
John and Gene
John was 5 years old when his dad died. Shot, in a case of mistaken identity that shook the small Ga town of Camilla where he lived. Gene lost his mom to cancer. His dad was so overcome with grief that he took his own life the same day. Phil was a junior in high … Continue reading John and Gene
Closure
The word closure is often used to describe a feeling of peace at the end of something, usually a relationship of some sort. It implies acceptance and release of the person you love. It comes from the Latin for the word shut. Like shutting a door. After Mom’s service, I should have closure of her … Continue reading Closure
Memories
Funny how memories work when you are grieving. They come unbidden and they are bittersweet. Mostly sweet. Mostly, I smile…sometimes with tears…grateful tears that Mom is whole again. Birthdays, Christmases, family trips, times with the grandkids, even childhood memories from when I was a little girl, all come forward as I flip through pictures. I … Continue reading Memories
Love
I’m on my porch this morning. It is cool and the birds seem grateful for that fact. The sun is playing with the trees and the result is a light show sprinkling the rays all around me like a disco ball. My fingers take the cue and dance across the keyboard. Today they are writing … Continue reading Love
Surprised by Joy
The last few days I have been resting, processing, planning, and resting some more. The cumulative physical exhaustion of the past few years seems to have caught up to me. Yet, it is different than the heavy sleep/sleepless roller coaster of those years. During the dementia journey, it has felt like trying to sleep with … Continue reading Surprised by Joy