I have heard you can tell a lot about someone from their medicine cabinet.  It is true!  Today I took on the purge of my medicine CLOSET.  Our bathroom closet is the landing place for any and all medication except for our everyday use items that are in the kitchen.  I have been wanting to get into that closet for a long time now and get it straight.  Today was the day.  My kids are gone for the weekend, Bill has a ton of homework for school, so I decided to take advantage of my time and purge.  I emptied it first…just that took 30 minutes.  The junk and mess was embarrassing.  Lets just say I am glad I was alone. 

However, as I began to take a better look, something strange happened.  I walked, step by step through my cancer.  First, I came across the bag of supplies for the wound-vac.  Tossed most of them happily.  Next, was the pain medication and my anxiety pills.  A little later a bottle of nausea medicine.  My scar cream, all the different types of tape we tried, then the estrogen patches, pills and creams.  Gauze, alcohol wipes, stuff to numb my port, step by step a journey through my closet was a journey through my sickness. The insulin I needed after chemo and all the syringes, medicine for chemo induced heartburn, mouthwash for chemo induced mouth sores. Antibiotics for infections. Vitamins to help hair grow, and herbal cream and shampoos for the same.

The good news is that even though it hit me hard how difficult it all was, and how much my body actually went through, I was purging and tossing and cleaning out all remnants of my cancer. Today, I must say, was the best Saturday I have had in a while.  I am clean and cancer free.  Now, so is my closet!