I give up

I give up.  After trying and trying to avoid a transfusion I have finally come to the place of having to have one.  The first time they mentioned one I cried.  The second time I said no thank you.  The third time I said give me one more chance to get my blood up.  This time I said let’s get this over with.  It is cool how God uses every little thing to prepare you for what you are going to face.  I am tired of being tired.  A week of work and I am exhausted.  My blood went down this week instead of up.  I am back in the danger range so tonight I went to be typed.  Tomorrow at 9:00 I get hooked up to get more life.  It will take 5 hours.  They say I will feel better…I hope that is true. 

3 thoughts on “I give up

  1. Ok, so it’s not over til it’s OVER…and you have resigned yourself. I hope this new life will spread all over your being and that you feel so much better on Monday…Are you sure you went back to school at the right time? Maybe a few more days of rest and rest and getting your feet back under you…
    Hang in there…

  2. I have thought that maybe I went back early but at the same time I don’t know that there is really anything you can do about your blood count. I have tried to find someway to control it over these past months to no avail. It seems to just be what it is…whether I like it or not. I have some cool new stuff about blood I will share soon.

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