Tomorrow I plan to go in to work for 1/2 day…in the office.  I haven’t heard from my blood work yet but I will be very surprised if there is any serious concern.  I feel pretty good except for the tiredness and the aches from my shot today.  Those will be gone tomorrow and I think it will be good to go in first thing to get prepared for next week.  Back to early mornings!  Ugh!  

I have to say I have mixed feelings about going back.  I have enjoyed working in the office and it has been a life saver.  It has kept my mind occupied.  I feel like I have been productive for the school even in my weakened state. I am excited to be back with the kids…and my teaching friends.  Working and making a difference for students.  I love that about my job.  But underneath the excitement I feel kind of sad.  I think I am grieving a bit…I know that doesn’t make alot of sense but I have come so far on this journey.  It has been a self discovery in a way and a God discovery.  Learning even more than I knew how much he loves me and cares for me.  How faithful he is, how deeply he wants to comfort me.  Its not like that will go away but it will be different.  I know I will never be the same.  Part of me loves being home and being able to sit with God and listen.  I will have to make time for that now…it will be a fight to find the time.  There is something about that hidden place that I find when there is crisis.  I don’t wish for crisis…I certainly don’t want to do any of this again but the God part was a sweet time for me.  The family part was a sweet time for Bill and I…and the kids.  It is a new day and a new part of the this journey…  I know there is much in store for us all and a new place of rest in the rush.