Today I feel like I am waiting for the shoe to drop.  I have pain in my joints but then it goes away.  I keep thinking it is supposed to be worse than this and while I don’t feel great I don’t feel terrible.  I am tired so I have napped.  I ache some so I take extra strength tylenol.  I have acid reflux instead of nausea so I take pepcid.  So far, even though I don’t feel normal, the side effects are manageable.  I feel much better this evening than I did this morning but I know I could still have more tomorrow. 

I am trying to rest in the love of God and know that all of you are praying that this will be as painless as possible for me.  I am hanging on to that and hoping that what I have felt so far is the worst it will get. Trying to believe the best while waiting for the worst…sounds like doubt I know but it is where I am right now, knowing that God knows me and is building me up in the midst of this hard thing.  He is so good to me…and so are all of you!